The older I get the more clear basically every facet of our society is to exploit us and fill us with propaganda.
The first thing that comes to mind when I wake up is how much I just hate being surround by this species that seems to want nothing more than to destroy itself.
Everything is a fucking joke and I’m fucking tired of everyone but I have a daughter.
I’m absolutely miserable and disgusted by basically everyone but I don’t have the luxury of being able to quit. I just long for death.
I enjoy life. But I am very aware that if I die, it all just stops.
If not for the pain I’d cause my loved ones, I wouldn’t mind dropping dead tomorrow. As long as it’s instant and painless. Like turning off a pc. When it’s off, it’s over. Easypeasy. No more stress, hunger, love, joy, nothing. Doesn’t sound horrible to me.
Suicide though? No way. There’s too much good to actively keep living for.