This sounds like anxiety and possibly major depressive disorder. All you can do is see a therapist, or just keep forcing yourself to get up instead of laying down and tell yourself it will get better. Just small steps for now.

Adam’s ale. What my grandpa used to jokingly call it. Edit: someone beat me too it.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Adam's_ale

Both vitamin B & D are linked with depression when levels are low, but my phone must’ve assumed I only meant B and omitted the D. -__-’ AI isn’t always helpful lol. But yes, a few minutes of sun each day can help a lot. Otherwise vitamins are a good way to supplement the two.

If you can question if you’re bad or good, then you’re likely good. A bad person wouldn’t even ask the question.

With that said it sounds like you likely have Major Depressive Disorder along with feelings of some guilt over the partner you’ve lost. My suggestion as a former psychiatrist, is you speak to your general physician, request a referral to see a therapist asap.

In the meantime a good doctor will suggest you start a medication like Prozac (but it can take 6 months to take effect and there’s alternatives like Celexa, Zoloft, Cymbalta). And all I can suggest try getting outside more and get some vitamin B and D, even if it means sitting in your backyard and reading a book for 5 minutes.

Also, the next time these thoughts come up, try practicing controlling your breathing. These thoughts are common now, so you need to try reasoning with that part of yourself, assert yourself over your negative thoughts and calmly remind yourself; you are in control. You can still make changes and it’s never too late for a second, or even third chance.

Welcome to the club, we yell at the sky on Wednesday and Sunday’s.

I remember discussing this in private school, I suggested its possible use was for portable masturbation on long trips lol.

Damn I miss mine. You could kick your leg and it sounded like you were wearing Karate pants and make a loud pop.

Interesting direction, any recommendations? As I feel like I’m starting all over again these days lol.

Sorry to hear, but an interesting thought experiment. At my age, there’s no reason not to give it a shot. I’ll name him, Gwen. 😂👍

Yes, imagine a self-critical version of yourself voicing its opinions on your failures.

This is actually pretty genius, are there any downsides?

I haven’t given mine a name… the strangest part is it used to help out.

The Last Man on Earth? lol

Amen, and love the username lol

Amen.

They do not, this song is more used to get employees to quit.

Good thing I have getting used to it

Oh you definitely get used to it, you just randomly start hearing what you think is an old pay phone.

Is that you, Bobby Hill?

When you think about it, it makes sense if you imagine spez was dropped on his head a lot as a child.

Don’t forget the lead and steel.

Jokes on me, my house still has some lead pipes

fix’d that for you.