Cyrus Draegur

Poly-Panro-Ace It/They friendly neighborhood wholesome degenerate abomination from beyond the stars (mostly harmless™). Atomic energy enthusiast. Architecture enjoyer. Mecha appreciator. Sci-Fi reader. Winged caniform bipedal warforged magitech cyber-lich in its dreams.

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Cake day: June 7th, 2025
  • Cyrus Draegur@lemmy.ziptoLemmy Shitpost@lemmy.world•Yes, this is what people did back thenEnglish
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    4 days ago
    [Exactly how traumatizing it was--Caution: NSFL]

    I was sexually assaulted in the locker room by other students. No one believed me. I subsequently experienced a psychological breakdown. The traumagenic dissociation plunged me through egodeath and I stopped being a person for a year. I was literally not myself again until 2009. I am still slightly messed up to this day, but the two decades that followed immediately after the incident were especially rough.

    Edit: this is not a dunk and I don’t hold it against you. By all accounts, in a better world, middle school shouldn’t be traumatizing. But unfortunately, this is not the better world.

  • Cyrus Draegur@lemmy.ziptoLemmy Shitpost@lemmy.world•Yes, this is what people did back thenEnglish
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    5 days ago

    1995…

    I was 10 years old and in the 5th grade.

    And I remember everything, huh? Hoo boy. Hoooo boyyyyy.

    First thing I do is write this list while it’s still fresh in my mind:

    1. ADHD is real and it will ruin my potential if I don’t face it head on. The medication won’t work on me yet, though, so tell Mom and Dad I NEED to get back on medication when my brain is more developed in a couple years.
    2. Also, for future reference: it isn’t actually a deficit of ATTENTION at all–it’s really stupidly named by neurotypicals who don’t fucking get it–it’s TIME BLINDNESS and a deficit of IMPULSE CONTROL and EXECUTIVE FUNCTION.
    3. Sugar is going to make me extremely sick and all my weight and fitness issues come directly from carbohydrate overdose. STOP drinking soda, and avoid refined/homogenized starch!
    4. I’m about to enter the most painful and traumatizing stage of my formative years. The middle school I’ll be attending starting 6th grade will be hell on earth. I need to keep my FUCKING mouth shut and not talk to ANYONE unless they talk to me. I also need to practice the skill of mindful dissociation and compartmentalization. Stoicism will be my only shelter.
    5. Yes the adults around me are morons and don’t know what they’re talking about, but broken clocks can be right twice a day. In this case, they’re correct about homework and studying being important for the wrong reasons: It is NOT about satisfying the expectations of teachers, but rather it is entirely for practicing the skill of internalizing and recalling information. I will not regret time I spend on it.
    6. Mom and Dad are struggling financially right now. Dad’s racking up debt while Mom is the only reliable source of income. That’s why they would “hold onto” my birthday and xmas money “for safekeeping”. it is neither kept nor safe; it’s gone. All of it. HIDE ANY MONEY I RECEIVE… and tell grandpa to buy stock in Apple.
    7. Express early interest in nuclear energy and pursue it with everything I’ve got. Approach via Mechanical Engineering. I’ll enjoy Computer Aided Drafting in High School.
    8. Remember the major incidents to come: Columbine and zero tolerance policy in 1999, also dotcom bubble crash, Al Gore will lose in 2000, WTC will be destroyed by a terrorist attack 2001-09-11, Bush Jr administration will cause the housing market to crash as well by 2008, America succumbs to Fascism in 2016, and there will be a global plague in 2020.
    9. I’m a furry and I am not actually a boy despite being assigned male at birth. Embrace androgyny. Get online. Find my tribe. Draw a lot.